Sunday, April 20, 2014

Everything is a miracle

Last Wednesday morning, I wanted to go to work early, complete my tasks doing a fine job and wanted come home early to start organizing my things in our new rented house. The house move made everything out of order lately. So, it was a must that I had to do something about my slightly changed new life. I was able to realize that I was physically running out of energy and started feeling lazy and had no motivation to correct things. I was thinking that the recent rainy climate or the wounds I had in my knee for some time now might have something to do with my laziness. As I start my day at work that morning, I was able to feel an extreme pain in my body and felt really cold, way too much than usually caused by the air conditioning system.
How illness makes me see the world
How illness makes me see the world

Immediately informed my colleagues, completed my morning tasks partially, had my breakfast at office and with a million things in my head decided to go home applying sick leave. Usually, I'm not a person who prefer to go to doctor. I don't even remember the last time I went to see a doctor. I thought as most of my friends had virus fever in the recent past, I must have got the same. The virus fever I'm talking about stays for a week whether you like it or not; whether you take medicine or not and then disappears itself. A little rest would do the trick. All I was able to think was, how could I quickly let the week pass and get back to normal. I couldn't think very clearly due to the heavy fever and the agony caused by the fever. Just took my bike and got out of the office with the intention of just going home and sleeping.

Now that I come to think of it, about two weeks after, almost got through this dengue fever fiesta, it's an absolute miracle that I'm alive today. What are the odds that I'm alive today, really.. if we think of the places we should have been already dead, it's crazy. Let's me just try to only layout the possibility of me being alive surviving dengue.

  1. Deciding to go home without continuing to stay at office - 50 %.
  2. Deciding to go and take medicine without going home and sleeping - 50 %
  3. Deciding to go to doctor without just going to pharmacy and taking some medicines - 50 %
  4. The doctor I found being competent enough to figure out that this could be dengue and asking me to do a blood test for dengue and full blood count - 50 %
  5. Me actually going to take a blood test after two days - being a person never took a blood test and didn't think for a second that I might have dengue - Should actually be 1 %, but let's just say 50 %.
  6. Going back to the doctor with the believe that I don't have dengue and finding that I have dengue and low platelet count and getting admitted to the hospital - Again, should actually be less than 1 %, but let's just say 50 %.
  7. Having had enough platelet count that the hospital was able to saline my blood with NaCl (0.9% ) water and manage to get the platelet count increased. - 50 %
so, that makes 50% * 50% * 50% * 50% * 50% * 50% * 50% = 1/2 * 1/2 * 1/2 * 1/2 * 1/2 * 1/2 * 1/2 = 1/128. It's less than one percent.

Even if we leave the part "Go home without staying at office" which doesn't make much sense, I get roughly about 1/64 chance of not dying; 1/64 chance of being alive. :) 

Just for a second, if we really sit and think the situations we should have been dead, it would really freak us out and to let us start wonder that what it is keeps us safe from all those harms could have happened to us. Escaping from war, chikungunya, chickenpox, street accidents, natural disasters and etc.. Is there any internal brain functionality works and makes us choose the right things to keep us safe. I couldn't really understand. I like quotes a lot and specially Albert Einstein's quotes makes more sense to me in most cases. 
“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” 
― Albert Einstein
 The only thing I was allowed to do past couple of weeks is sleep (taking rest). The only thing I can do when I lay on the bed and find myself not able to sleep, think about things and get my brain tired to go sleep. There were some useful chain of thoughts and found myself few useful lessons to be learnt from dengue disaster. Please do not ignore the following, if you like to be happy.
  1. Kill every mosquito you see then and there. Buy a mosquito bat/spay or whatever it can kill mosquitoes.
  2. Kill everyone who ignore mosquitoes and doesn't want to do anything to get rid of them.
  3. Drink at least about 100 ml water or liquid every hour.
  4. Eat a lot of fruits and have a healthy diet.
  5. Take plenty of rest. Sleep enough.
    ( I sometimes try to run really fast without knowing where am I running. Now I have to remind myself to slow down and take rest. Stop, if needed. )
  6. Focused 6 hours of solid smart work is more productive than 10 hours of hard work with distractions.
  7. Exercise and meditate regularly.
  8. Remind all the good things we learnt in life all the time.
  9. Spend some time alone to think about the mysteries in life and see whether you can solve any.
“There is more to life than simply increasing its speed.” 
― Mahatma Gandhi
 Hope this post, my effort to kill some time writing something on my cool new tablet, might be useful/interesting to you. My sincere thanks to you for reading my posts. Farewell.