Showing posts with label Blog. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Blog. Show all posts

Monday, July 22, 2013

It’s a never ending quest

Today, now, as any other weekend evenings; I’m ly-ing partially arching my back on the warm sand in the beach comfortably. My mind feels clean, must be this gentle breeze coming from sea towards the beach and the moon light. It’s around 7.30 PM now. No sun, but moon is on night shift. Beach side lights complaining moon’s job. Unusually few people for Sunday.

I don’t remember thinking anything when come and sit here, but then as I start to look around, the people walk, talk, lights, dogs, coconut trees, bars, restaurants and hotels; looking at these, little-little ideas/thoughts/judgments/comments start to pop inside my brain. Tomorrow is full moon day, so today; moon’s bright and beautiful lighting up the whole beach and the sea. The people are truly blessed to be here and experience this.

Mostly these chains of thoughts make me paranoid and leave me with a million questions. Why am I here? What am I doing? Who these people are?  What are they doing here? Why some are happy and some are not? Why some are rich and others are not? Why some drink a lot, shout and laugh to a point they bother others? The questions list is usually very big that I get frustrated not being able to answer any and feeling petite.  Most people seem to be comfortable agreeing with whatever the religion they follow to answer these questions somewhat irrationally and blindly. I have a need to make sense when I tell myself something. If I tell myself that I’m here because god created me, I know I will really get angry at myself easily. So, I can’t try to answer myself any of these questions relying solely on religion.

Some of the questions popped in my head are in and around the area where I’m comfortable answering.
  1. What programming language should I choose to excel on and why?
  2. How to keep me up-to-date with the current technologies?
  3. iOS or Android and would I need a tablet?
  4. Where I want to settle down?
  5. What are the things I badly want to change in my personal life?
  6. How I want to change the world?

Most of the time when I think about these things, I add a note to my “any.DO” app in my iOS, which is awesome BTW, and remind myself everyday to make them a routine or to complete them or make a decision on. Since I don’t have anything nice to write in my blog, I’m thinking of picking some of the things I noted in my “any.DO” relating to the some of the questions I have been asking myself and answer them in future posts. I’m typing this on my iPhone blogger app as I’m listening to some quality Jazz. It’s not something I find easy to do. I’m still struggling to acclimatize to mobile-computing; I’m still more comfortable typing on a computer.

So, I’m going to switch to Microsoft OneNote and note down the things I want to write when I post separate blog entries answering the above questions. Talking about OneNote, if you’re using any iOS devices, please try Microsoft Office OneNote. …….. ahhhhh… Also,  It’s a bit dark here and my camera doesn’t do a good job in low light conditions yet I shot some ok pictures to post along with this blog entry to give you guys a sagacity of what I’m talking about.

I would really appreciate guys, if you could email or comment your answers to the questions I talked about. I badly want to get interactive with the bloggers community and learn art of writing, but so far I couldn’t find an easy way to do that.

I’m doing so many things thinking one day or another these things are going to make sense. Hope I’m right and thank you, if you want to say to me “Hey! Who knows what’s going on? Do what you feel like doing.” Life seems to be a never ending pursuit of answers to so many questions we have and as we experience new many things every day we get the answers and forget the questions.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

2010 - Need an R & D Job - மாட்டு பொங்கல் வாழ்த்துக்கள்

Allo all & Allo 2010. 'Allo' is tamil version of Hallo. 2009 was good; actually It was great.
Let me list my

2009 achievements.
  1. Jeyaram. BSc (Hon) [ Not a normal person anymore ]
  2. Found a Job as soon as I graduated.
  3. Met trillions of new people.
  4. France VISA - [ Never wanna talk about ]
  5. Labelled myself as a true Google fan. I love Google.
    The only thing makes me high, Checking Google's new product launches.
  6. Completed my JAVA api - SMPSI fully (Tested 1000 times, Documentation is ready)
  7. 3 "ACTIV" projects to fill my pocket.
  8. Normal cook to Great cook.
  9. Revamping THEACTIV.COM with Shiya _/||\_ & Ratha ( Pending )
  10. Learned a bit of Flash AS3 and ASP.NET.
  11. Earned some good friends at Platt halls. ( My uni hostel )
  12. And many more small ones.... I mean, regular size ones
So what 2010 brought me? So what am I up to? Now, I need to find a Job somewhere in R & D even If I don't get paid much. I need a Job where I can think out of the box and use my creativity and do something amazing. I know I can do amazing things, but I need a better platform., I mean a better Job which allows me to be creative, allows me practise my own way of doing things and so on and so forth.. If I like or excited about anything, I can learn whatever it is quickly. That's why I always say my mates, I would pay Google, If I can get a Job in Google.:p It's a metaphor, Obviously I can't pay Google, but you know what I mean.

My lecturer told me "You can't get an R & D Job with out PhD". He must be wrong.. He is Jealous ...

I though of posting something on my blog on the first day of 2010, but I was deep inside my bed mattress. Then woke up on the 6th and made a test HD youtube video using my mobile. Check it http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bb9MMbekfFE
Now I'm trying to establish a habbit of updating my Twitter, Picasa, Youtube & blog regularly. So, In 2086, in my 100s, I can look back and say "Fellows! That was me."

I wish you a best மாட்டு பொங்கல் & my deepest sympathy to all those who suffer in Haiti. What can I possibly do to help my fellow Haitians?